Pathetic

It’s kinda pathetic when someone breaks your heart. I mean, it really feels that world is falling from the sky, the end of the world, cry all over the night. And those are what I’m feeling now.

But then I just close my eyes, taking some long breath and release it slowly. I know he’s not the right one for me. Hopefully, I’ll find another him, someday. Keep dreamin and believin.

Bloggies, some days ago I just have read a post from my best pal Arum Fitriana (heyitsarum.blogspot.com) entitle “You… Unreachable”. Some seconds after, I got it. I catch it about how it feels when you love someone that unreachable. Then I understand that he’s the unreachable one too. I just can adore him, looking at his smile from far distance, imagining that someday he’ll be mine. But how hard I try, imagine is still imagine.

When everybody tells me to keep optimistic, I just can smile. I’m the only one who knows how it feels, the true feeling of admiring the unreachable. I know everything is possible, but for this, dream is enough. And now I feel so broken hearted when I know that he has had a girlfriend, and she is my own friend. Haha. It’s pathetic, I know. But I have prepared for the worst.

I have no idea how to describe this. It’s too cold for me. But life goes on. Just like what Raditya Dika said on one of his book “The world will keep on moving and I’ll keep on standing”. And yes, he’s true. I have to get up and move on.

Maybe I can’t own him but admiring is quiet enough. And for him, hopefully he’ll always be okay and get his happiness.

From me, The one who adores you.